Just Thoughts

Your not just my girlfriend. You’re my best friend. I love spending time with you and just being around you. I couldn’t imagine losing you. It’s sad to say that I’ve been close to losing you. I mess up a lot. I do. I’m not perfect. I knew that. But you thought I was close to it. I ruined that for you. I’m not as great as you thought I was and that hurts me everyday knowing that. I want to be your knight if shining armor. I want to be that guy that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with. I want to be yours forever. I’ve always told you that I would never hurt you yet I seem to do it more than I notice. I’m sorry for every single tear I have caused. Im sorry for all the nights I kept you up because I small part of you thought I was actually going to call. I feel like a complete ass just writing this and I feel it inside. I feel horrible. I haven’t been anything close to what I want to be when it comes to you. I’m sorry. Im sorry for everything. You are my girlfriend but I feel like I have to earn your love back. I feel like I’ve lost a big part of your heart, trust, and that feeling of being safe with me. When I say I love you I want you to feel it. When I say im going to do something I want you to believe it. When I have you in my arms I want you to feel secure and like I’ll never let you go. I can’t tell you how exited I am for the next chapter of our life’s. Its a new beginning that I can’t wait for. I want this. I want you and everything that comes with it. I love you and no one can ever take that spot away from you. I’m yours. I promise.